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happy, right now.

2012-01-31T01:35:00.000-04:00

I drove down the 75 this afternoon biting my nails furiously. I was running late, although that's not why I was anxious. I had Tuck's bag packed for a stay. We were headed to see a Neurosurgeon at the hospital. Tuck was diagnosed with Hydrocephalus right before Christmas.

Since moving to Michigan four months ago Tuck has become the patient to a Cardiologist, Pulmonologist, Gastroenterologist, Geneticist, Physical Therapist, Speech Pathologist, and now Neurosurgeon. There has yet to be a week here where we haven't needed to go see one of them.

He's a tricky one to figure out, that Tuck. He's keeping the doctors on their toes. Syndrome is the word they keep using, although no one's sure which one. He keeps me very busy, and Wyatt too worried. We're still in the thick of the storm, trying to get diagnoses for a couple different issues, trying to manage the endless appointments, but today the storm lifted just a bit.

Like I said, I had bags packed. Bottles for the rest of the day, pj's just in case, my book. The other kids had babysitters. As I drove I thought about the possible things I might hear from the doctor. Shunt was the word I really didn't want to hear. Then I thought about the weather, and how the snow on the side of the freeway was ombre looking. Probably because my mind didn't want to scare itself before it knew for sure, and the weather was safe.

The doctor put me at ease right from the get go. He was super casual. And quick too. He already knew everything about Tuck's history, so we didn't have to go over the usual rundown. That was really nice. I appreciated that. We looked over Tuck's MRI and he showed me pictures of normal brain fluid, compared to Tuck's brain fluid. Tuck has more than normal, but not an alarmingly amount more. Good news. Tuck, he thinks, only borderline has hydrocephalus and at this point, doesn't need a shunt. More good news! In fact, it's the first good news about Tuck's health that I've heard since living here. I was grinning ear to ear.

After the doctor left the room, and before I strapped Tuck back in his car seat, I squeezed him, and rocked him, and loved on him. I hoped he could feel the good news too.

I drove home with the stereo blaring, and just felt really happy for him. Later tonight I happily unpacked his bag.

celebrating 5 with 5 chefs

2012-01-30T01:44:00.000-04:00

Because the weather wasn't cooperating, Tate's second choice (to a sledding party) was a baking party.

We invited five of her girlfriends over for an afternoon of baking... and eating, of course.

I set the table for five little chefs, re-using a lot of what we already had. Baby food jars for jam take homes, bright rubber spatula's as a centerpiece, glass milk bottles from leftover starbucks frapps, cutting boards and pyrex dishes as decoration. Anyway, turns out a baking party is perfect because all the themed decorations you could ever want are in your kitchen.

After getting some ideas here, we decided on a chocolate dipped strawberry station, homemade jam station, and cookie decorating station.

All were a hit, and the girls especially like mashing up all the strawberries for the jam.

(I accidentally set my camera to "scene" and not a good one, because from here out, all the pictures are grainy.... argh!)

Anna, Olivia, Gabi, Tate, and Avery. These five were a hoot to watch interact.

Laughing and giggling about anything, admiring their disposable aprons, commenting on how they saw real cute aprons at TJ Maxx the other day... "oh, my mom goes there", one said after.

It was hilarious. Tate is so lucky to have such fun little friends.

Mashing up the strawberries. We used this recipe. It seemed the simplest.

It turned out delicious!

She blew out her candle... there was some awkward silence, and then Wyatt and I laughed about how they might still need some parent interaction encouraging them what's next:)

The day ended with the tired chefs throwing off their hats & aprons and lettin' loose!

These two, oh boy.

milestones

2012-01-27T12:58:00.001-04:00

There have been some major milestones round these parts in the last couple weeks.

Mr. Finn is sitting. Rocking on all fours. And cut two teeth- the bottom two. He's blowin up people!

Tuck man finally got the umph to roll. He's still got to wind up to get going, which is highly entertaining to watch.

Both boys are babbling, mostly saying dadadada and yayaya. My new favorite- leaving them in one crib together to play and listening to them babble, fight, and coo from the other room. In following with their funny personalities, Tuck is usually just gazing into Finn's eyes curiously, while Finn smiles, flails his hands in Tuck's face, then pulls a fast one on him and steals his binky. I let it happen because I know this will be the only time Finn will be able to dominate him. As soon as Tuck man gets mobile... watch out!

Also, off subject, I made these last night and they were divine. Easy and healthy. We all enjoyed a couple. Try them!

king luther

2012-01-25T22:41:00.001-04:00

I melt for this little one. I feel like I say it all the time, and I feel like a broken record. But I don't want to forget this sweetness of hers. You know, in case she decides to steal & crash my car one day.

We had a rough morning. The kind where she asks for one too many treats before lunch, the kind where I'm having to say no to far too many things. And let's just be honest, I was totally annoyed. I said to her, as I was doing her hair, "we're having a rough morning aren't we? We aren't getting along too well".

Tate, in the most sincere, concerned voice says to me,

"but mom, we have to get along. that's what king luther taught us".

King Who? I say

"Marthin Luther King mom. Well, Marthin Luther King Jr."

"He said we need to get along with everybody".

You're so right Tate. Thanks for reminding me.

... go ahead and laugh

2012-01-24T23:32:00.000-04:00

This was today.

On my counter this evening, my notepad read this:

- ~~take out frozen soup to thaw~~
- hang picture in boys room
-organize nightstand
-make + freeze cupcakes for party
-meal plan for next week
-email renters
-email babysitters
-apply party labels to treat boxes

Wow. good job chels. tons accomplished.

"That looks like throwup!", was Tate's reaction to dinner. Oh thanks honey, that's lovely.

And

I found this gem on my camera.

Fabulous. I'm zonked out on the couch in the early morning and my 5 year old is awake. Parent asleep, child awake. I'll pat myself on the back for that one.

kicks and thigh highs

2012-01-23T01:20:00.000-04:00

Thigh highs. Short squishy dimpled legs. But somehow Tuck makes this look so adorable.

Oh, I could eat this little man up.

one whole hand.

2012-01-20T02:39:00.001-04:00

today you are 5. five!

today you are like magic. i want to freeze you forever.

today you are overwhelmingly sweet. i love that most about you.

today you are 40 pounds and getting taller quick.

today you love german oven pancakes most.

today you prefer sad, funny, or gross stories only. you say the others are boring.

today you are growing your hair out, and it's just past your shoulders. you like it in braids.

today you like anything by shel silverstein.

today you wake at 7 and always start the day with an episode of fresh beat band.

today you finally like being a girl.

today you adore your brothers, and are a better big sister than i ever thought a little girl could be.

today you are silly. those hips of yours can sure move, and you have perfected your english accent.

today you are always aware.

today you say cunchtable, for comfortable, and it's the best thing ever.

today you are polite and very caring.

today you don't want help in or out of the car.

today you can pour your own drink.

today you like to play family, candy land, chutes & ladders, and memory.

today you are less shy to strangers and extremely chatty at home.

today you still snuggle your blank.

today you brush your own teeth, your own hair, and tie your shoes.

today you love to draw streets and towns.

today you can sing most adele songs.

today you are easy to smile, and give love freely.

today you are sounding out your words.

today you still love to help me in the kitchen. i hope that never ends.

today you are forgiving and oddly patient.

today your favorite are jeans and a tee shirt.

today you are tough, a fast runner, and very flexible.

today you have a sensitive heart. you don't like to be the center of attention, it makes you nervous.

today you still put an f before the words remember, remind, and relax and i don't want to correct you.

today you still can't sit through an entire movie.

today you like having your tummy tickled at bedtime, and a song sung to you.

today you are competitive and love a good contest. mostly if you win.

today you get hot easily and spend most nights shirtless.

today you are growing out of playing cars.

today you wear a necklace each day, and one spray of kid perfume.

today you tell me you love me, daddy, the boys, AND yourself... and that makes me so happy.

today you are one whole hand! Happy Birthday sweet Taters!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I feel like I think I should when I like, turn 60 or something. Her life is over. yep. It's all downhill from here, and I don't want to talk or think about it.) But really, I can't even talk about it.

the babes

2012-01-18T01:05:00.003-04:00

Before we took off to Michigan my dear long time friend (with 16 years behind us!) Cassi, cleared her busy schedule to take my kids pictures. Since getting married, to best friends mind you, we've never lived in the same place. Argh! Shouldn't there be some sort of best friend clause against that?! Anyway, it's always so worth waiting for her to be in the same place, at the same time, as me, so that she can work her magic and capture my kids just as I see them. I love that about her work.

When she sent me these pictures I cried as I looked over them (and wished so badly Wyatt hadn't had to miss them!) I love these precious little faces so much, and I love the photos even more knowing she was a part of them.

Always worth the wait, that Cassi is.

This is my favorite photo of the boys. I was happy to be able to use this amazing cradle of my mother in laws. Her dad, Wyatt's grandpa, built it, and all 7 of the Horsley children slept in it. It's beautiful.

Thank you a million times over dear Cass!

If you'd like to browse through her other stunning photographs, you can visit her site here, and wonderful blog here.

2011, Good Riddance!

2012-01-16T03:47:00.000-04:00

I'm welcoming 2012 with fresh eyes. Happy eyes. I'm leaving 2011 behind me, letting it go, but taking what I learned and setting new rules for myself. Rules mainly about what thoughts I allow my brain to digress on, because afterall, that's what I can control.

I know most of you are thinking of Valentine's Day or Spring already, but I'm just now closing up the holidays and thinking about the new year. My days move a million miles an hour and my head is always weeks behind. It's how I roll now.

2011 was, um, crappy. With three moves, bed rest, twins in hospitals far too long, unexpected news & set backs, I am HAPPILY welcoming 2012.

I firmly believe that we are not given more than we can handle. It was proven to me this year, as too many times I didn't know how I was ever going to make it out alive. And I also believe, as cliche as it sounds, things fall upon us specifically for a reason. Really believing that gives me a lot of strength and boosted confidence to keep going, just do it, and be happy. If I've been given it, I MUST have the strength to conquer it.

I know 2012 isn't going to come and go without it's surprises and hardships, some I already know I'm in store for. But at least I know now I can do hard things. I've proven that to myself in 2011. But please Wy, let's not move or have another baby for a while (or ever!), okay?

2011 year in review: the stuff you haven't seen
(Fair warning- this is obnoxiously long. If you're just interested in seeing the holidays skip to about 5 minutes)

What I loved about 2011:
Meeting the boys
moving out of Saginaw
moving back to our old hood
meeting two more new nephews
endless and genuine service from family and friends
the summer of yes!
lagoon, nielsens custard, late warm nights on the lawn, the country club swimming
Tate learns to ride a bike with no training wheels, takes tennis and plays on her first tee-ball team
girls trip to Vegas with mom
Having Wy home w/no work, no school for 3 months!
seeing our new home & neighborhood in Bloomfield Hills

It is a good life!

swear, the next post won't be a video.

Well, Hi There.

2012-01-14T22:40:00.000-04:00

Where to begin? The whirlwind of December still has my head spinning. I hate feeling like I have a million things I want to say, record, and remember, but don't where to start. I'm getting my stuff together though, slowly, and until then here is a little gem. A little, big, burly, hilarious gem.

Christmas Vacationing

2011-12-29T01:35:00.002-04:00

Hoping your holiday was wonderful. Our first in Michigan was small and quiet and cozy, and so wonderful. Now me + the kids are enjoying the hustle and bustle, and fun that comes with going "home" for the holidays.

We're in Salt Lake City and will be totally enjoying our time with family + friends.

I love this time of year. Catch up with you soon!

HAVE YOURSELF A MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-24T01:27:00.000-04:00

It's officially Christmas Eve, barely. I'm cozied up on the couch, watching Love Actually with Boo, and it's finally snowing at this very moment in Michigan.

It's the perfect start to Christmas Eve.

I hope you and yours are somewhere cozy, enjoying this beautiful holiday together.

Cheers to you all & MERRY CHRISTMAS!

TIME

2011-12-23T00:57:00.001-04:00

I've loved having my sister here this week. For so many reasons, mostly just her company. But I noticed too that she's given me a little gift, of time. Time to shower in the morning, time to get another hour of sleep if I want after she wakes up, time to take a date with my husband, time to sit here and blog. And time to notice, and love, and live in little moments throughout the day. Like Tuck sleeping sweetly with his perfect chubby hands tucked up near his face.

I could stare at that kid sleep (and at his perfect hands) all day.

And time to stop in the middle of shopping at the Gap, amidst the crowds of last minute shoppers to capture a cute moment between Finn & Tate. And that adorable giggle, before I missed it.

Time is not something to be taken for granted, as it very rarely allows for do overs.

So glad I have her here with me to s l o w me down, and allow me to enjoy these beautiful perfect kids I've been given.

LATELY

2011-12-22T01:07:00.000-04:00

~~Neighbor~~ friend gifts. CHECK.

Sometimes it's awesome that you don't know your neighbors yet. NO neighbor gifts to fret about this year. I did want to take something simple and pretty to a few dear friends who have helped me so much since moving here. It needed to be simple, pretty, and it needed to be inexpensive. Trader Joes mini Poinsettia's were perfect (and I love that appley red mix). I'm not a big fan of the gold metallic and clear celophane wrap that usually accompanies store bought flowers, so I switched that out for some of my brown craft paper, tied it off with twine, attached a nice little card and voila! I think I'll stick with mini poinsettia's each year now. So easy and pretty.

Goofy kid to deliver them. CHECK.

First Christmas Cookie Exchange with strangers. CHECK (and a blast!)

I went with the glittering lemon sandwich cookies, and although I'm sure easier than the Macaroon, they still took me 6 hours! Pretty and delicious, but I'll never be making them again. I have a two hour baking limit.

Celebrating with Family. CHECK.

This sister flew into town for Christmas, and is making it all Merry & Bright!

Post Dinner Dance Parties. CHECK.

Christmas Traditions

2011-12-18T22:58:00.001-04:00

photo

This year we won't be traveling home to Utah for Christmas. It's our first year not doing that. So that also means our first year to make our own traditions. Kind of exciting, kind of intimidating. I'm worried it won't be as "magical" as the Christmas Eve's past.

Usually at Wyatt's grandma's we act out the nativity scene, sing Christmas songs, and play our own chimes to the music.

At my families, the big to-do is our game of Charades, followed by the children acting out the nativity, and ending the night with my dad reading Polar Express. The grandkids get new Christmas jammies, and we get new tree ornaments that cleverly sum up our year.

This year I have planned , and, , followed by a fun round of , and then maybe we'll end the night sweetly by doing .

We'll be eating this too . YUM!

Okay, so I need your help. Big time!

The magic of Christmas at the Horsley household depends on it.

Please do share your favorite Christmas traditions, and delicious eats that are Christmas to you.

UP LATE LAUGHING

2011-12-15T01:32:00.000-04:00

I'm up late, of course. Addressing Christmas cards, and pinning at the same time.

Always making time for that these days.

I got side tracked when I saw this, and now I have tears running down my cheeks.

your welcome.

Pinned to Life: Food

2011-12-13T01:13:00.000-04:00

Another week of almost all recipes made, from Pinterest.

Some awesome, some not so much.

Here's the run down, the low down, the down low, the scoop.

This not-so-good's were,

Butternut Squash Ravioli

I thought this would be a favorite since I always love this dish when I'm dining out.

Wyatt and I both thought it was too sweet (and I have an evil sweet tooth).

I went with Trader Joes ravioli, which was delicious, and should have just been left on it's own.

If I were to make this again I would:

cut out the brown sugar syrup stuff and the ricotta,

add a bit of browned butter over the top (maybe sweetened just a tad) + fresh sage.

La Madeleine's Tomato Basil Soup

Adapted from a much loved cafe in Salt Lake I was sure this was going to be a hit too.

I love recipes with simple, good quality ingredients and the fewer usually the better I've found.

I'm not sure where this one went wrong, but it just didn't have much depth of flavor (not to sound all chefy, but that's the only way to describe it). It just needed more of something. It didn't settle well, and I won't be making it again.

Next time I'll try this recipe I think.

The Hit's were,

Beef + Broccoli

Simple, delicious. I served it over brown rice and we all devoured it.

*I did add some red pepper flakes for a little kick

Try it!

Roasted Squash Salad

A very nice, filling, but lighter meal. I only like to serve meat a once or twice a week, so I always add in a hearty, but meat-free salad, or pasta. This is a great winter salad.

*I used walnuts, instead of hazlenuts, and it was okay, but if you do substitute get the candied walnuts. It needs that sweetness.

This week from Pinterest I'll be making:

Quinoa Cakes with Lemon Aioli + Fontina

Spanish Alfredo with Raisins

Cauliflower Soup

I'll let you know how they go. Now, go make some of these & catch up on the Kardashian's!

That's what I'll be doing.

HOLIDAY COOKIE EXCHANGE

2011-12-12T00:44:00.001-04:00

This week I was invited to a cookie exchange party with 50+ women in the area. I've never been to a cookie exchange, I've never met most of these women, and my specialty no fail cookie has always been the chocolate chip. I don't think that's going to cut it this time. Not that it's not delicious (and it IS!), but I want to try something new, something a little more festive. The Peppermint Macroon and the Glittering Lemon sandwich cookies are the two I'm debating between. I've always wanted to try the Macroon, and think if I set aside several hours the night before when all the kids are in bed, I could slowly follow these tips to perfection and hope & pray they turn out okay. But, the sandwich cookies are much easier + that glittery sanding sugar just looks fun! I'm thinking gold, silver & hot pink. Fun, no?

What are your thoughts? Have you ever tried making a Macroon? Is it too risky for a first-timer? Do you have any other fabulous cookies that you think would even trump these?! Tell, tell. Do you think 20 other women at the party will also have made Macroons, you know, since they're kind of the new cupcake and all?
(and can you tell this isn't stressing me out at all).

Shopping for You

2011-12-08T02:07:00.000-04:00

I'm going overboard with my Christmas wish list. With Pinterest now completely taking over my life it seems my list is doubling daily. Greed is getting the better of me. But, if you're still wondering what you'd like, or need a gift for someone else, here are my tried and true favorite things! And no, sorry, I'm not giving any of them away.

These are what I use over and over and over again. They are what I would jump in front of a moving truck to save.

They should no doubt be added to your Christmas wish list.

1 .Barefoot Dreams Bamboo Queen Blanket

I asked for this for Christmas a couple years ago, and everyone thought I was crazy. A $140 blanket? Whaaa? One night snuggled up with this bad boy and you'll shoot yourself for letting your baby get all the good blankets thus far. It's probably my favorite thing I own.

2.Goody Goody slippers

I'm going on my 4th pair. I get a new pair each year for Christmas, and wear them just about 365 nights a year. I'm not a soles-on-slippers fan, so these are more of an extra padded, extremely comfy, adorable sock. Trust me on this one.

3.Nars Brightening Serum

I like glowing skin, and it's getting harder for me to achieve that look naturally (ugh!).

This summer I was introduced to this product and now don't go a day with out it. I use it alone, on days when I don't have time for makeup, and it just perks my face up a bit. But, I love it under my makeup most. It brightens, smooths, primes, and gives the perfect amount of "dew" you want on your face. It's not cheap, but a little goes a long way, and I mostly use it on my under eye/cheeks only.

4.Target's Instant Skinny leggings

They aren't kiddin when they say theses puppies slim. Try them, and you won't want to take them off. And they aren't like the cut-your-circulation-off pants like Spanx or anything. They're super comfy. Maybe just give yourself these though, it might not go over so well if you give them to someone else.

5. Mom Journal

I've used notepads, my mac stickies tab, but this little book has made it easiest for me. Plus, it's such a beautiful little book, I love having it out. It gives you space each day, for five years, to record something. I'm already loving to look back at all the funny things Tate has said.

6. Tocca Stella Perfume. Excuse me, Eau de Parfum.

It's heavenly, and not too expensive. I get asked all the time what perfume I wear, and this is it.

Although, if you ask Wyatt, he prefers this to anything else. So maybe go with the guys opinion?

7. Wanna know what the best candle is? This one. I swear someone comments on it every time I have it lit in my home. And, is it sick that it's comforting to me because it's how Anthropologie smells? Probably. In my defense, when I worked at the Santa Monica store it's all we burned, so maybe I'm psychologically associating it with my dream to live in sunny Cali. Anywho, more info than you care to hear about. Moving on.

And need I say it again. If you don't have this, you MUST get this.

We use ours almost daily, and I'm convinced we wouldn't survive with out it.

A little secret too- You can get one that has been returned in perfect condition at the factory in Utah for a discount. That's how I got mine and it looks/works like new. I don't even think it was ever used, and still came boxed with a lifetime warranty!

Happy Shopping!

CHRISTMAS TREE + HOT CHINA

2011-12-07T01:06:00.001-04:00

We got ourselves a tree. Not the charming cut-it-down-yourself style. Not even the go-to-a-cute-tree-lot style. Nope, we headed to a real special place called Lowes, bought ourselves a real, but pre-wrapped, tree for a mere $20, and popped that sucker up last night.

Tate helped me with the lights, we all listened so contently to Frank Sinatra's Christmas melodies (is there anything better?) and drank Hot China, per Tate's request.

All day I heard "let's get our tree, listen to Christmas music and have hot china while we decorate it!"

She's talking about Chai. But Hot China is sooo much cooler, so we've changed the name officially at our house.

This morning we woke up to the most beautiful fresh snow outside, watched Elf while the boys napped and finished off the rest of the decorating. I really do love this time of year!

If you're wondering, that's not a tree skirt. I've never had one, so each year I just use this crocheted blanket. Works like a charm.

Tate was giddy about putting up this sock advent that my mom made us, but is still annoyed that we have to start on the 6, instead of the 1. Oops, bad mom.

But tonight I've filled them with goodies from Trader Joes and am crossing my fingers the treasures inside will make up for the six lost days.

Happy Holiday ~~cluttering~~ decorating!

White Girl Dances

2011-11-29T23:18:00.001-04:00

Few things on this earth entertain me more than Tate when she decides to groove.

This rendition I especially loved the chest slap, and quick tapioca pudding break.

Ugly Children's Clothing

2011-11-29T13:02:00.001-04:00

Who woulda thunk it.

Three guys, who design kid clothes, and call it ugly children's clothing.

But yet, they aren't ugly. They're adorable! And I ~~need~~ want these two knit one-pieces for the twins' Christmas Eve. Perfect right?

Although, I can't splurge on it right now. So YOU should! If I can't have them, I'll feel better if I know someone's little baby gets one of these for the holidays.

It's on sale today on Zulily. Click here.

Our Small Thanksgiving

2011-11-28T09:00:00.001-04:00

Our Thanksgiving weekend came and went too quickly. Yours? This year, for the first time since we've been married, we enjoyed a dinner with just our small family of 5. I grew up having Thanksgiving with my entire extended family, usually 40+ people and it's a grand holiday event! Even though it was just our little family I still wanted it to feel special, and different from just our usual Sunday dinner. I wanted to put on something nice, dress a pretty table, and feast upon all we are thankful for... and that we did.

I think I'll always put a little more effort into dressing my table now, seeing as how most these items were found outside or around my house, it was so simple! Pinecones were gathered in the grocery store parking lot (believe it or not I couldn't find any in my yard, but spotted them on my way out of the store the morning of, on a small patch of grass!). Ribbon and part of some pine bough was an easy way to dress up the silverware. Tate was entertained by making the place cards.

I don't own a runner, so I taped craft paper down the center of our table. The place mats were paper too, found here, and given to me last Christmas. I've loved them so much, I haven't wanted to use them a lot, so this was the perfect opportunity.

Sticks from our yard in a vase, and more pine bough completed the table. It really was so simple, and cute Tate is still talking about how fun it was to have a "fancy" table. I'm glad I could create that for her!

Pre dinner was the typical Thanksgiving running around, and Tate kept busy making necklaces for us to wear during dinner (although for some reason only her and Wyatt ended up with one).

Thanks to Auntie Boo for sending her beads, as it's all she plays with these days.

Now that's a confident man. Sharpening the knives and while wearing a beaded rainbow necklace.

Tate and I both waited impatiently for the green beans to finish.

And then we ate! And ate some more, why not?

The boys were asleep for most the action, but Tuck wanted to join in at the last minute and ended up with carrots from Wyatt's mouth on his head. Oops, sorry guy.

The night ended like this...

Tate cozied up to the fire watching Elf...

Apple pie...

And a disaster waiting for us in the kitchen.

My favorite part of the meal?

This Carrot Souffle. Wowza! I'll never go another Thanksgiving with out it.

Rolls from a local French baker, who delivered them to us the morning of!

Tate telling us she was thankful for the whole wide God.

Feeling Thankful

2011-11-23T00:18:00.001-04:00

This summer, a short while after the boys were born, I received this gratitude book in the mail. It came on a bad day. A perfect day for the book to come into my hands, but a bad day for me personally. It came from a stranger. A sweet woman whom I've never met, but who's sister is one of my dearest friends. With it was a note. She too is a mother of twin boys, so knew all too well the ups and downs that come with having multiples. In her letter she told me how writing her thoughts down of what she was grateful for helped her make it through some hard times.

Although I sporadically missed days to actually write down my reflections, I did reflect at some point each day on how much I have to be grateful for.

In some of my darkest days, real days that I thought I had maybe made a mistake, something would pop into my mind, or someone would call to remind me, and lift me up just enough to make it through... so far. It's true what she said, the woman who sent the book, that taking a moment each day to reflect on that would help. It did help, it is helping. I have a lot to be grateful for.

I am grateful to her. For her kindness, her generosity, her caring words, her validation, her timing.

I'm so grateful that I have two little boys who came at one time. Because really, that's super cool!

I'm so grateful for a husband who works harder at being a good dad than he does anything else, and who accepts me for the crazy, emotional, passionate, dramatic, prissy gal that I am.

I'm so grateful for a daughter who seriously breaks my heart every. single. day with her sweetness.

I'm so grateful for my family. This past year more than any other time, I've needed them. Like, would have died with out them. I'm still alive, so we can all thank them for that. I hope when my kids are older they will feel the same comfort and security that comes from knowing your parents will be there for you when no one else can be.

I'm so grateful for friends who kept calling, kept visiting, kept reaching out, even when I didn't/haven't returned the favor.

And if you've left an encouraging, or complimentary, or nice comment on this blog, or on my facebook, or through email, know I'm grateful for you too.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

This Week We...

2011-11-18T00:10:00.001-04:00

Built our first fire in this house. And it was heavenly.

Watched the first snowfall of the season out the back doors.

Bathed all three kids at once. Tate was just a charmer about it.

Felt the first snow flakes of the season. Brrrr.

Took two afternoon cat naps with my chubby lover Tuck. Heaven.

Sorry Finn. It's your fault for not being a snuggler.

We also endulged in these puppies which have truly changed my life forever.
Figured out our neighbor either hates us, or is an axe murderer and doesn't want to be identified. Or both. We're going to take him cookies, just to be sure.

Made this for dinner- yum.
Found out how to make Tuck giggle so bad he holds his breath
Got in a heated argument about who should fill the car up with gas (for real).

Scrubbed in on a brain surgery and spinal surgery. Just me though, Wyatt was home all day watching the kids and pinning.

Have a lovely weekend!

He's Called Snuffaluffagus

2011-11-13T23:34:00.001-04:00

Those lashes, I die over.

Opposites Do Attract

2011-11-11T21:28:00.001-04:00

Twins? Nah. Two babies born in the same stomach, yes.

Finn & Tuck could not be more different. So far the only similarity we have found between the two of them is their birthday.

Finn- skinny, long and wiry

Tuck- not skinny, short, and sleepy

Finn- can barely finish a 6oz. bottle in 30 minutes

Tuck- cries for more after 8oz. in 5 minutes

Tuck- loves to be swaddled tight to sleep

Finn- despises that swaddling blanket as if it were the devil in disguise

Tuck- my cuddler

Finn- don't even think about it

Tuck- burps on command, and several times the second you sit him up after eating

Finn- rarely burps

Tuck- barely there hair, still

Finn- has lost a head, and regrown another color entirely

Finn- eyelashes that go on forever

Tuck- lips that go on forever

Finn- high pitched squeals and coos

Tuck- low raspy growls and chuckles

Finn- thinks everything over your shoulder is cool

Tuck- thinks you're the coolest thing since pumped milk
Finn- tummy time is a good time
Tuck- do it, and die

Finn- needs to "settle" himself to sleep

Tuck- shuts his eyes the moment you lay him down

Finn- innie

Tuck- outie

Finn- looks like Tate

Tuck- looks like... our Japanese mailman?
Finn- commonly called, snuffaluffagus, the queen, twitch, phelps
Tuck- commonly called, Boss, Beavis, Captain Chunk, Mr. Tuck

And, there you have it.

6 months later

2011-11-11T16:44:00.001-04:00

The boys have quickly become six months. It's crazy to me. They are just barely not feeling like newborns to me. Oh, how far they've come though. Finally I think (I hope I'm not jinxing it), we have reached the fun phase, where they realize life awake is pretty cool. I've wanted to post new pictures and thoughts about them each week, but then the week comes and goes and so does my time, without even noticing it. I finally had some time to catch my breath the last two days and made this little video of their life thus far. I do have so much to say about these two spicy boys, but this will do for now.

Happy 6 months my sweet boys!

love, mom

Murmuration

2011-11-09T21:55:00.000-04:00

While I can't take credit for this stunning piece of video, I also can't not share it. I saw it today on Design Mom, and have watched it now four times over. It's so beautiful. Immediately, my yearning to travel and experience the world kicked into high gear. There is such beauty everywhere, and I want to get my hands on it.

Murmuration from Sophie Windsor Clive on Vimeo.

For now, I'll settle for the murmuring of the wind outside my windows.

Pinned to Life

2011-11-06T10:10:00.002-04:00

Completely drinking the Pinterest koolaid. Are you?

I'm always in search for new dinner ideas and Pinterest is like my never ending cookbook. I thought I'd share what I have tried and really liked.

White Bean Chicken Chilli

Butternut Squash Apple soup-
this calls to add Cider or juice at the end, and I found it to be a tad too sweet. I might do half cider, and half water next time.

Lemon Garlic Spaghetti (my favorite so far)

Farfalle Carbonara

Saltine Cracker Toffee (delicious, although I'd half the butter next time)

Happy Pinning!

Best of the Week

2011-11-04T00:22:00.000-04:00

These two finally captured smiling together, and laughing at Wyatt.

Fuzzy phone pic, but we'll take it. Oh, how we adore them!

Don't be alarmed that one looks Caucasian and one looks Asian. Promise they are twins.

Double Double Toil and Trouble

2011-11-01T06:13:00.001-04:00

We waited for the witching hour, and then headed out to the best trick-or-treating neighborhood I've yet to see. Tate got a pumpkin full of goodies, cast a few spells on her victims, and we got some overdue time with just her.

In continuing with my mother of the year theme, the twins didn't get a costume this year, or have a single picture taken. I feel great about it.

Hope you had a great night!

BwAHAHAHAHA!!

2011-10-31T16:47:00.001-04:00

photo

Happy Halloween to you & your little ghouls. This is one of my favorite holidays, and we'll be celebrating by making butternut apple squash soup, watching old movies, and of course trick-or-treating!

Here's a look back at our past year's costumes....

A PROUD MOMENT

2011-10-26T23:50:00.000-04:00

You can go ahead and congratulate me now for Mother of the Year.

This week I really went above and beyond for my children, and am feeling on top of the world.

In the car, "I forgot to feed you breakfast Tate... here's some tic tacs"

Before school, "Just wear a leotard or swimsuit to school today because you don't have any clean underwear"

and that's just what I'm willing to share. I don't want to make any other moms feel guilty about not doing enough for their kids.

My New Life

2011-10-20T23:38:00.000-04:00

I wonder how long my adjustment period will be. To my new life, that is. I really feel like I've been given a completely new life, and it's not bad, just very different.

New children, new state, new house, new schedule. It's been a whole lot to "adjust" to. Some things wonderful, like our home & neighborhood. Some things not like Wyatt's busy schedule and not knowing anyone.

The blogging might be touch and go (as if it's been regular lately:) for a bit as I figure out this new life of mine. My life is looking a little like this... actually, exactly like this. Because if it doesn't look exactly like this all hell breaks loose and things fall apart all over the place. Sort of like Jenga.

So, here's what my Jenga life looks like.

6:00am- boys wake up together to eat. Double feed the boys in their chairs.

(Wyatt's already been at hospital an hour)

6:30am- burp Tuck, try to avoid his unavoidable projectile reflux spit.

Change Tuck's diaper, place back in chair

6:40am- burp Finn, change his diaper, place back in chair

6:45am- hop in shower (if this doesn't happen NOW, it will never happen)

7:00am- Tate wakes up

7-8am- Boys nap, Tate watches cartoons, I get ready (in theory:)

8am- Breakfast for me and Tate

8:30am- get Tate dressed

9am- boys are up, and need to eat again, double feed boys

9:30- burp both boys, and change diapers again

get boys dressed

9:30-10:30- play time/tummy time for boys

10:30- Put boys down for morning nap

10:30-12- time to clean up breakfast, put away boys toys, pack for the days outings

12 noon- boys wake up. Tate needs lunch. Make Tate lunch and then double feed boys at double speed because Tate needs to be to school in 30 minutes

12:30- change boys diapers, load everyone in car

12:45pm- Tate at school

1-2pm- run any errands quickly, go home and choose 1 of the following to do:

-check/respond to emails

-clean house

-laundry

-sleep

Usually ends in me cleaning up the tornado from the morning rush

2pm-3pm- boys nap again

3:00- wake boys up, who are angry and ready to eat

load into car, no time to eat now

3:15- pick Tate up from school, rush home to feed screaming boys

3:30- home, double feed boys, get Tate after school snack

4-5pm- play with boys and Tate (books and cuddling for boys, craft or baking for Tate)

5pm- lay boys down for nap

5-6pm- make dinner, Wyatt gets home (best time of day!)

6-7pm- eat dinner (this time I'm anal about. I hate eating later than 6), clean up dinner

7pm- boys are awake again. Wyatt and I feed one each, or he double feeds depending on what else needs to be done. Wyatt and Tate usually play something.

7:30- jammies for all the kids

7:45- boys in bed for the night

7:50- brush teeth for Tate, lay out tomorrow's outfit, tell her a story (which much always either be sad or gross because those are the only stories she likes), sing a song, say prayers, goodnight.

8:30pm- All kids in bed (in theory)

8:30- 9:30- between Wyatt and I, we

quickly pick up the house, so it's organized for tomorrow

do the days dishes

make lists for tomorrow's errands/chores/appointments

I re-stock the diaper bag and sort kids dirty day clothes from clean

wash all 18 bottles, then re- make 18 bottles for tomorrow (Wyatt does this)

start load of laundry, fold the load from the previous night

put laundry away

veg on couch to watch a show, catch up on emails, or heaven forbid talk to each other about our day:)

10pm- both our eyelids are heavy and we head to bed. Wyatt usually before me since he get's up at 4:30am. I have a hard time taking myself up to bed because I know it's alllllll going to come again the next day.

This week we made it to the park one day, and Target another day. Both which were huge feats. We also, this week, made it to the doctor's office three times (and again tomorrow) and the ER once. Oh, and I got a flat tire on the highway. That was really awesome.

It's been just sunshine and roses around here.

Lots of sunshine and roses to adjust to.

New for the boys:

Finn is laughing, and rolling over, and can finally eat more than four ounces per bottle

Tuck smiles at everything, burps like no ones business, and is gaining more fat rolls

New for Tate:

started a new school which she loves, and met three friends

finally got a house with stairs she can slide down

learned from the "fire doctor" at school all about 'mergencies, and when to call 911.

"Like, if you see someone on the street that has a sign that says- I'm going to shot you with fire", then you should call 911 she says. Also if you see a stranger coming into your house, you should call 911, then go get some "pickle spray", spray them, and the fire doctor will send them to jail.

We use pickle spray, instead of pepper spray around these parts:)

(she also told me if she ever got lost in a Target or Nordstrom she would find another mom with kids and tell them what I look like, which is...

"you have brown hair. You kind of, sometimes wear a necklace. You are sick. You are really really nice"

She's set!

New for Wyatt:

In his first two weeks of surgery rotations and so far so good

although he thinks all the surgery residents are jerks

has to be at the hospital at 5am

was told to keep a snack in his pocket in case he didn't have time for a meal, so he didn't pass out in the ER. Apparently eating isn't a real big priority when you're a surgeon.

buzzed his head

wants to live here forever

New for Me:

my first house with hallways long enough for a runner

cut my hair to my shoulders

being "that mom". You know, the ones who's always late, and always frazzled.

A SNAPSHOT OF MICHIGAN

2011-10-12T00:12:00.001-04:00

I could catch up on the 700 or so pictures from the summer that still haven't been posted, or the many very important milestones my kids have made. Like say, someone learning to ride a bike with only two wheels, or some boys turning 4 months, rolling over, then turning 5 month, oh and given a special blessing. But that'll just have to wait until someday (I'm not even committing to posting it soon, just someday). Because now the biggest thing happening in our life is the recent move to Bloomfield Hills, Michigan. To say we love it so far would be a huuuuge understatement. We're pretty sure we've found our soul mate area. That does exist, you know. We just didn't know it until we saw this place.

I have oh, so much, to show you... but for now here's a little sneak peak at our first week here.

Above: the side of our new house, and yes, the rolling hills in the backyard happen to ALL be ours (more pictures coming soon).

Not more than a 3 minute walk, just down the most beautiful paved, tree lined walking trail, from our house is the Village of Franklin. A historic little town, home to this Cider Mill (which we've enjoyed homemade doughnuts & cider from twice already).

The boys are are just tickled pink about the place, can't you tell?

Glorious leaves swirling and falling everywhere and colors that put the stunning Utah mountains a little to shame.

Said perfect paved, tree lined, walking path into Franklin. Something we're making time to enjoy about once a day, because how can we not?

What would this cute village be without a perfect little town market. Not just any market though... one that knows everyone by name, delivers groceries and sells the finest foods and flowers.

Town library with church bells ringing in the background

Gift shops, salons, restaurants, all locally owned.

And everyone here decorates for the holidays. Even the adorable fire station, and tiny full service gas pump. Don't even think about not dressing up for Halloween, or having your house lined in pumpkins and candles, because you'll be the only one.

The Farmhouse. Our local coffee/ice cream parlor. Of course it looks like this. Everything here looks like this. So far, nothing here is not charming. And if you're thinking "this is all great Chels, but it looks a little small", just bear in mind this isn't even where we live. This is just what we get to enjoy less than 5 minutes walking distance away. I've already found that no more than 7 minutes in the car, lands me in downtown Birmingham, home to some fabulous restaurants and the Anthropologie. (que music now. because that's how I felt when I realized the ideal location).

And to top of the perfect experience that is the village of Franklin, you have the community church, who's bells ding and dong every hour, on the hour.

This town seems so perfect I keep waiting for carolers to burst out of the bushes and break out in my favorite song.

Okay, there's those smiling faces.

ps- forgot to mention the lake. The one we're walking distance too. Sorry mom- how will we ever leave?!

Happy Birthday Mr. Horsley

2011-09-26T12:23:00.000-04:00

It's a Penske birthday for this handsome 31 year old today. He's spending his birthday hauling all of our "stuff" across the country to Michigan. What a way to spend your birthday, ah?

I bet he's just having the time of his life in that big yellow truck.

The thing is, he probably really doesn't care, because he's just an easy going sweetheart like that.

I'm so lucky he's mine, and I'm sure happy he was born.

Happy 31 babe!

The friends in my life

2011-08-28T14:02:00.000-04:00

This post has been a long time coming. Probably because thinking about this and taking it all in is so overwhelming. I'm talking about my friends. Old and new, far and close. I am surrounded by selfless, generous, and truly beautiful women.

From the moment Wyatt and I moved back in April, not a week has gone by where I didn't hear from them. They all have families of their own. They all have trials of their own. They're all busy, very busy. But they make time to help, and have offered that time so freely.

For an entire two weeks each one brought me a fresh and frozen dinner. Delicious, elaborate dinners with dessert and plenty for leftovers. And they're still calling, ~~offering~~, insisting on bringing dinner. Some have even brought 3 or 4 meals!

It's not just the ones pictured above, but all my dear friends. Friends who live out of state who send me messages weekly to check up and let me know they are thinking of me. Friends who call frequently to have Tate over to play. Friends who schedule girls night, and over-nighters. Friends who offer to babysit (all 3) while Wyatt and I have a date night, because she too has twins (+3 more!), and knows what it feels like.

Childhood friends who I haven't seen for years and years stopping by the hospital with treats, or sending me encouraging, and much needed emails. Friends offering up anything they don't use anymore that they think I might. I have never felt forgotten by them, I have only felt loved.

It's humbled me. It's made me think a lot about the kind of friend I am, and hoping one day I can be more like them. It's reminded me to keep these women close, keep in better touch, give back... because I could not have done this with out their support. The value of a good friend is immeasurable. I have felt that this summer, and I am so so grateful.

Fell in Love

2011-08-18T03:34:00.003-04:00

This week I completely fell in love. You know, the motherly, I want to eat you, kiss your face off, squeeze you to death, would do anything for you kind of love.

Wyatt, Tate, and Tuck are on vacation (it's a long story), so me and Finn have had three days to ourselves. No other kids to tend to, no splitting my time. Just me, and just Finn to spend the days however we please.

For me, the bonding with the twins has come slowly. Slower than I'd hoped. Did I totally love them right when I saw them, yes. Did I feel like I knew them more and more as time in the Nicu went on, yes. But there was "something" that I can't put my finger on that was missing. I know most, if not all of it, was due to the fact that they spent the first three months of their life being taken care of someone other than me. But this week I've really felt like Finn's mom, and I've loved it. I know that I know him better than the nurses now and it feels so good.

I know that he wiggles his arms like a chicken when he's eating.

I know he's happiest and will want to flirt after he's done eating.

I know he needs time to wiggle on his back, get all his coo's out, and smile before he's ready to go down for a nap.

I know he prefers to lie on the right side of his head.

I know that if I do a certain kissy game I have a 95% chance to get a smile out of him.

I know he loves it when I'm wearing stripes

I know when he starts to stir out of his slumber that I've got about 10 seconds before he breaks out in full crying dramatics:)

I know he doesn't prefer his binkie right after he eats, but demands it all other hours of the day.

I'm completely smitten.

(ps- don't worry Tuck, I love you just as much)

Happy 100

2011-08-12T02:00:00.000-04:00

Did you hear! Did you hear?

Our Tuck man came home!!!!!!!!

We are over the moon.

More on his discharge day later, because today these little guys are 100 days old!

They really bonded today, and Finn just loves that Tuck is providing him yet another thing to suck on...

you'll see.

What you can't tell from the pictures is the sheer determination Finn had to kiss Tuck's face (and nose) right off!

Tuck- not a fan.

3.2 months

2011-08-06T21:33:00.000-04:00

The boys are 3 months and two days. I still feel like I barely know them. Having them in the hospital that long made it nearly impossible to truly bond with them. With their adjusted age (doctors go by their due date), they're just over a month. They still feel, look, and act like newborns. So to think that they are already 3 months is really weird. Here's what we know about them so far...

Tuck: Still in the hospital. He originally was admitted for a heart condition, which with medication, has now gotten under control. His severe reflux is what's keeping him there now. He's slowly working on eating all his food from a bottle, as they wean him off his feeding tube. And it's taking f o r e v e r. He's working as hard as he can, and so are all the wonderful nurses who take care of him, but it's still too long for me. We, of course, are still up there each day visiting with him & trying to get to know him as best we can. I know this for sure, the kid can poop. I mean, a lot and all day. He grunts too. He seems pretty manly so far. He loves loves loves to be held, but might even love his binky more. He sucks on that thing like it's his job. He has perfect fingers. He should be a baby hand model. He's shorter and much chubbier than Finn, weighing over 9 pounds. He prefers to be held up on my chest and loves to rock. He can go from 0-60 in .2 seconds, purple face and all. It's a good thing he soothes easily.

Finn: home now for 4 weeks and getting better and better. The first week was rough, we were all adjusting to each other, but we're getting it, and today he smiled his first real smile at Wyatt. It was adorable. He's eating every 3 hours, and as of this week started sleeping a solid 6 hours at night. When he's awake he, like Tuck, loves being held. If he is crying, it's usually because he's not being held. He is a total cuddler, and we love it. He is now smaller than Tuck, longer and narrower, at 8 pounds. He never poops. In fact, the poor kid can't poop without our help. He's got reflux too like Tuck, although not nearly as bad, so he also prefers to be held against my chest. He squeals out before he cries, and makes the sweetest purring noises when he's alseep. He loves that bink too. He loves to be swaddled and bundled up warm. He does not love his carseat, or the swing too much, but likes the vibrating seat. His toes are so chubby and close together they look like they might pop right off. He sleeps with his mouth open, just like Wyatt and is happiest right after he eats and we're playing on the changing table. He likes tummy time a lot, and does not like being flat on his back at all. He loves bath time.

Happy 3 months little loves.

Last weekend I learned...

2011-07-29T16:47:00.002-04:00

This past weekend I was here. Yes it's true, Paris.

The classy one. You know, in Vegas.

I went with my mom for a little getaway, with the purpose of checking out a possible place for Wyatt to do his rotations, in Bakersfield CA.

I learned some things along the way...

There really are some parts of the drive from Salt Lake to Vegas that are pretty.

Expect to see some strange forms of "art" on the Vegas strip

I learned I really like my mom. She is super cool.

and to never, never pass up a meal at Spago. Especially their house made s'more. Major Foodgasm.

I learned by accident that all the flashy bright lights can actually be pretty.

And that Bakersfield isn't all that bad. In fact, I was pleasantly surprised.

I learned that finding the "charming neighborhoods" in a new area will make you feel a whole lot better about moving there. They do exist, even in Bakersfield.

Vegas has some real cool moons. Low and huge and orange. But never ask mom to take their picture or else they'll turn out like this.

I learned to always make time to stop by the Kate Spade store to ooh and ahhh over clever displays... and snatch up a pair of adorable gold bow earrings while you're at it.

That reminiscing with a dear old friend is one of the best ways to spend an evening.

That I have a rockstar of a husband who arranged for me to go on this trip and was totally fine watching our three while I was gone.

...And, that it's time to leave when you witness a young girl with a plumbers crack recounting her sexual endeavors from the previous night, and then giving her beaf-jerky- eating mother a lap dance at the pool.

Leave, leave then.

My Sunshine

2011-07-19T02:35:00.000-04:00

I heard this coming from my bedroom Sunday afternoon and totally melted.

A Family Statement

2011-07-18T10:20:00.000-04:00

My sister emailed me this great wall decal, and I loved the words so much I thought I'd re-create it on our chalkboard in the hub of our home. I think it's going to be a permanent part of our family now. It seems very fitting for us.

Do you have a family statement, or family motto of some sort?

Lemonade 25 cents

2011-07-15T02:23:00.001-04:00

Lemonade, Lemonade... 25 cents!

It's been on our summer bucket list, a lemonade stand, for a while now. Tate's been waiting to use this stand, a gift from Grandma and Papa, since Christmas.

Last Friday was the day. She opened shop, with her best next door buddy Olivia, and had themselves a blast!

Lemonade, fresh baked cookies by Tate, good old fashioned Lemonheads, Cherryheads, and suckers were all sold and all a hit. Tate exclaimed "it's like a real store mom, a real store!" Basically her dream come true since earlier that week she told me she wanted to be a "store seller" when she grows up:)

The neighbors and friends and passerby's came out and made these two little cuties very happy, and very rich. Thirty dollars to be exact!

She'll be open again today, so if you'd like to stop by and get a refreshing treat come on by the corner of Stratford & Deaborn tomorrow between 3-4pm.

Happy Summer!

*stand is made by melissa & doug

Competitive Hopscotch

2011-07-14T01:42:00.000-04:00

Wait. You didn't know Hopscotch was now a sport?

Oh yes!

We had quite the little hopscotch competition on our driveway a couple weeks ago. Tate even busted out the microphone and did her best announcer voice

"AAAAAND, next up we have Wyyyyyatt Horsley!"

We each performed a trick when we jumped from square to square. He showed her all the cool tricks, and definitely beat me out with that jump and hand stand.

Tate basically thinks he's the bomb.

Who knew a little chalk on the sidewalk would be so entertaining?

ps- I'm trying to catch up all that's been going on. Stay tuned for
Finn & Tucks first bath (that we gave them)
Tate + tennis
My thoughts on friends
The kids new rooms
Tate's first lemonade stand
Finn & Tuck, polar opposite
Lazy days at the pool

Oakley Rodeo

2011-07-13T00:00:00.001-04:00

We had to miss the rodeo this year because Finn had just come home, but Miss Tate was lucky enough to tag along with my family & had herself some good ole' fashion fun!

We've been hearing all about the cows, and bucking bulls, and rodeo queens ever since.

I do love a good rodeo, and apparently Tate does too.

That great 4th of July

2011-07-11T01:58:00.000-04:00

I've decided the 4th of July is one of my favorite holidays. I'm pretty sure our awesome neighborhood has something to do with it.

Here's why...

The 10th annual Stratford 4th of July parade. Each year more and more neighbors come out, deck out, and wave flags. But it's got this great small town feel that makes it so fun.

We spent the night prior decking out Tate's bike. It's still decorated:)

We sat on the side, threw bit-o-honey's to the paraders, and marveled at how many people came out this year.

We had horses...

We had beauty queens...

We had tutu'd dogs...

And of course, pants & skirts made from duck tape!

The 4th of July parade alone should make you want to move (or stay!) in this neighborhood. It's the best!

It doesn't end there, because at the end of the parade there is a street carnival for kids. Snow cones, ring toss, face painting, music and catching up. I was thrilled to see my favorite neighborhood girls running the snow cone stand like champs:)

And after all is done, ride around the corner and we're home.

Snow cones for breakfast weren't enough for us, so we headed up to my favorite Salt Lake City breakfast eatery, Ruth's, with my family. Soooo well worth the wait. We dined on the patio, perfect temperature, live band, and cinnamon pecan french toast. Perfection.

I filled up my afternoon by visiting this darling little boy. This might be my favorite picture yet. Those lips! Ahhh, can you stand it?! I need him home so we can make out all day.

Fireworks later that night at the Country Club with the Horsley's. Too loud for Tate I guess.

And please reassure me that we aren't the worst parents ever and you've taken your newborn to fireworks too? I think he can still hear.

Topped the night off (whew!!) with sparklers, and pina colada's at our house. In bed past midnight for us all... but one of the best 4th's we've ever had.

What we're saying

2011-07-04T01:38:00.001-04:00

If you came over to our house this is what'd you'd hear, over and over again...

Tate:

Is Finn awake yet?

Can I hold Finn?

I have to feed my babies, and pump my milk out too mom

Has Finn pooped yet?

Can I pick out Finn's outfit?

Can I turn Finn's music on?

Hi Finny Finny, it's okay Finny Finny

Can I change Finn's diaper?

I'm going to pick out another outfit for Finn, okay mom?

He is so cute!

Wyatt:

He is such a drama queen

Come here Bus (to Finn)

Tate, turn Finn's music off please

I'm just tired

Has Finn pooped yet?

You're not breathing, you're not breathing (to Finn when he eats)

He looks so much like Tate

Ahhhhhh... test is over

He really is so cute

Me:

Can you feed Finn so I can pump?

I can't believe it's time to pump again

Tate, turn off Finn's music please

Come here Finners, Mr. Finn, Finny Boy, sweetheart

Has Finn pooped yet?
It's sooo nice to have him home

I'm tired

Wy, do you think I have enough milk stored to stop pumping?

Breathe Finn, breathe

I just love him

I've got to go pump again

Finn:

eh, eh, eh (when he sleeps)

waaaaaaa (when he eats)

errr errr ahhh (when he tries to poop)

All is revolving around this little creature Finn right now. It's been exhausting, but peaceful at the same time. I'm more grateful than ever though, to just have him home.

One home and One to go

2011-07-01T01:09:00.001-04:00

There's a little surprise at our house this week, and he weighs about seven pounds.

Yup, Finn came home! 56 days in the Nicu was his cook time, and now he's done.

The only word I have to describe the feeling I had when we were finally home with him, holding him with no cords or monitors attached, with no nurses around, was pure joy. I was literally smiling all day.

Tate was finally able to meet him with out a window in between, and although she told me she was scared at first, she has now become his second mother.

She absolutely adores him, and so do we!

The only sad part of this event was knowing his other half was still at the hospital (and will be for at least a couple weeks), still hooked up to cords and monitors, and not getting the love and cuddles he deserves.

Hurry Tuck, hurry and come home soon.

She, Me and Us...

2011-06-26T18:03:00.001-04:00

This weekend she...

Got new roller skates and is practicing so hard to get her balance

Graduated to a booster seat!

Got a snow cone

Went on a date night with her grandma, papa, and cousins to see Cars 2, had burgers and root beer floats for dinner, followed by smores, and then camping in the tent with papa in the backyard!

Ate pancakes

Went swimming with cousins, twice.

What it would be to be a kid again, right?!

I...

Filled the freezer (for the 10th time) with my milk, there's no shortage here

Enjoyed a Nielsen's Frozen Custard

Took Tate swimming, twice

Felt like a newlywed again on a date with Wyatt that ended with us not having to put Tate to bed, or wake up with her in the morning! Sleepovers at Grandma's & Papa's should be a monthly thing.

Saw the movie Midnight in Paris with Wy- pretty good

Ate an entire bag of frozen grapes

Visited my sweet boys

Watched Friday Night Lights (more Tim Riggins please!)

We...

Attended the Arts Festival with Brooke

Waited in line for a very average slice of $4 pizza for 30 minutes, and another 15 minutes for an un-carbonated Diet Coke

Forgot our stroller

Saw enough freaks and geeks to last us until next year

Left after the bribe of a snow cone or ice cream couldn't even keep Tate from wanting to just go home and go to bed.

Didn't see any art booths. darn.

Were really glad we got in for half off, since we only got a crappy slice of pizza out of it.

Her "why are you so annoying, just take me home already and stop taking pictures" face.

Me and Brooke made a late night visit to see Finn, ooh'd and aww'd at how cute he is, then enjoyed another frozen custard from Nielsen's.

Definitely, a successful weekend!

Fat and Happy

2011-06-23T03:24:00.000-04:00

The boys are doing great! Both have turned a corner (cross your fingers it stays that way), and we are hoping to see them home in the next few weeks. I'm not getting my heart set on anything, because if I've learned anything through this process it's that they are definitely on their own time frame. We have no control. Do we ever though?

But boy, are they getting big! Now 7 weeks old, Tuck (above) weighs about 6.5 pounds (could you just die at that adorable smile!), and Finn (below) weighs just over 7 pounds. Real life babies now. The nurses say they are fat and happy, Finn especially. He's got a little case of the summer lazy's I think. He's perfectly fine just being fed through a tube, and so far, doesn't seem to have an ounce of aggression in his bones. A good quality to brag about, but not when he's supposed to be eating better than he is at this point. A little aggressiveness on his part wouldn't hurt when it comes to taking a bottle.

It's all that he has left to "pass off" before he comes home.

Look how content he is with that feeding tube doing all the work for him. I can't really blame him though, can I?

Welcome Summer!

2011-06-21T12:43:00.002-04:00

It's 85 degrees outside, I have plans to visit the pool for a bit. Officially the first day of summer, and I feel it. You know what that means?

Hopscotch in the driveway... in jammies

Nightly family bike rides after dinner

Cat Stevens playing in the car with the sunroof open

Nielsen's Frozen Custard (we like ours chocolate with peanut butter cup)

Trips up and down our neighbors treehouse

Lazy afternoons at the pool, every afternoon

Fresh light food all day (why do we eat so much healthier in the summer months?)

Dinner + smores up the canyon
Tan lines and painted toenails

Drive-In movies

Frozen Grapes and Smooze's Fruit Ice bars
Drinks from the hose

Sleepovers in the tent

That's about what our summer will look like + two sweet little babies along for the ride.

A Girl can Dream...

2011-06-20T12:26:00.000-04:00

I know my shot at winning is waaay slim to none, but a girl can dream right?

Today is the last day to enter, and I'll be praying all day that my comment is the lucky one and I'll finally get to see that Paris place I hear so much about.

Enter here.

Dads are rad...

2011-06-19T17:31:00.001-04:00

Because even though they have to study for the biggest test of their career so far, they make time to visit their new boys in the hospital every single day.

Because they skip school for the morning to volunteer to read a story to their little girl's preschool class.

Because who else would tell her when to run from 2nd base to 3rd?

Because they climb into tents for story time.

Because 30 minutes before the circus starts they say "let's go to the circus, we need some fun!"

And they do things like take their daughter on bike rides to the park at 7am, and say because "it might be the only time we can play all day, so if she wants to go on a bike ride to the park at 7am we'll take a bike ride to the park".
That's the kind of rad dad he is.

Every kid needs a dad like him & we all absolutely adore him!
Happy Fathers Day Wy!

To my sweet dad & generous father in law too... Happy Fathers Day! You're rad.

Being a kid is...

2011-06-16T01:01:00.000-04:00

Flying, swinging, twisting and laughing hiiiigh into the treetops on a summer morning.

Around here...

2011-06-07T23:42:00.002-04:00

The boys are good... they aren't home, and won't be for a couple weeks still, but they are good (still at separate hospitals)

I'm okay too... Wyatt, and my family, and girls nights are saving me.

I'm pumping 24/7... or so it seems.

Wyatt's studying for his boards 24/7... literally

Tate is cruising around on her bike, walking her "dogs" Buddy and Moses, and washing our car every morning with her water gun.

The boys have made some milestones as of late that are quite exciting to us...

Already a month old.

Finn is 6 pounds now! Can you believe it? I feel like he's so chubby.

Tuck is close behind at 5 pounds 8 ounces!

Finn graduated out of the isolette and can now keep his own temperature up and wear clothes.

Tuck and Finn both started learning how to suck on a bottle this week.
Both are adorable and perfect and so so so sweet.

Tate finally got to meet Tuck and loved every minute with "her tucky tucky".

She is already a wonderful big sister and is so sweet and caring with them. Her heart is so big. They are so lucky to have her.

Sweet sleepy Tuck. I've only seen his eyes open one time.

Tuck at one month old.

Skin to skin time with Tuck... my favorite moment with him yet.

Hooray for Finn! He's out of his plastic cage and into a bed.

Finn learning how to take a bottle... as you can see he still needs to learn to wake up first:) Every single nurse has commented on how sleepy both babies are. I told them I had applied the Baby Wise sleep techniques to them in the womb.

Cute Finn with his lip taped up, and one month old.

Who knows when I'll get around to blogging anything now but my three kids. I'm already stressed that I haven't been keeping a good enough record of their growth, milestone's, and face expressions. These are our last two, so I've gotta remember everything!

She Rides

2011-05-20T00:36:00.002-04:00

It was waaay overdue. She was very patient. We finally took her...

She insisted on giving each & every one a test ride... no discriminating here. She plays fair.

Then she chose...

A blue and white, racer checked, super duper cool TREK! Of course she did.

Pink, bells, and baskets- no way. Blue, Boy and totally bad- right up her alley!

Then she rode...

and cruised...

and did awesome poses for the camera:)

And she hasn't stopped riding since. Truth.

This girl was made to ride a bike. She's fast, fearless, coordinated, and has endless stamina.

What a rad (and adorable) little girl she is.

Life in the Nicu

2011-05-17T19:21:00.000-04:00

I started this post out very ~~negative~~ honest. Then I read and re-read, and deleted it because it was, well, too honest and negative. I don't want to be a debbie downer on my blog too much. I re-wrote a more positive and cheerful post about the twins life in the Nicu. And well, that one seemed so far off reality that I couldn't possibly post it.

So... unlike my usual self, I don't know what to say. The subject of the twins in the Nicu is just something I really don't like talking about. But here are some pictures of what the past 13 days have looked like for Finn & Tuck.

Me and Finn, 8 days old

Wy and Finn (at about 3 pounds 12 oz), 8 days old

Finn. Love those big lips and dangling foot.

Tiny Finn

Finn, who looks just like Wyatt's baby picture... I'll show you later.

Adorable Tuck, who is a little more sick than Finn and has been transferred to another hospital:(

Wy and Tuck

Tate gets to see Finn for the first time through the Nicu window!

Tate looking in so closely and nothing but smiles. She wants them home so badly and already calls them her "little sweethearts".

Tuck's bed at the new hospital.

Tuck... always has his hands up by his face

Maybe Tuck looks a little more like me?

Me and Tuck, 13 days old

Tuck... seeming very comfortable in his new crib

Tuck's tiny toes

Picture of the Week

2011-05-13T16:13:00.000-04:00

This week can be summed up in one word.... chaos. Such is our life right now.

But this picture of Wyatt and Tate reading before bed (hours past her usual bedtime, pre-chaos) makes me smile. It sums up Tate's quirky and hilarious personality, don't you think? Tee ball hat on sideways, blankie and Baby Susie.

A little girl, who's a little tomboy.

Say Hello....

2011-05-07T12:59:00.001-04:00

to Finn Robinson + Tuck Bennett.

Making their early (32 weeks) and QUICK debut at 5:19 and 5:22am on May 4th. I checked in at 4am, and an hour later we were a family of FIVE!

Can you believe it? We still can't. We have three kids!

Some stats:

Finn, born first, weighed in at 4 lbs. 3 ounces and was 17.5 inches

Tuck, the youngest, weighed 3 lbs. 15 ounces and was 18 inches

Both look like little birds, and have the funniest pip squeak cries

Obviously not identical, Finn has lighter and more hair.

While Tuck's is a bit darker and less full.

Both babies were whisked right away to the Nicu, are as healthy as to be expected for their age, but will most likely be in there for 5- 6 weeks. I won't bore you with all the medical jargon of what they're on, and plus I can't pronounce any of it, or keep it straight. So, that's that. Finn is a bit healthier than Tuck, but already Tuck is a feisty fighter... just like in the womb.

Poor little Tate might not believe she actually has two new brothers since she can't even see them yet, and won't be able to for a couple weeks, and even then, just through a window!

She's been such an angel about it, although I imagine she's probably so sad inside.

The last three days have looked something like this...

Could not have made it through any of this without him. I'm so grateful for a loving, patient husband who stays by me through everything, is at my beckon call, calms me down every 10 minutes as I cry about everything, and will still call me his wife after witnessing the mesh panties + diaper look I've been sporting.

Above: Finn

Below: Tuck

Poor Tuck got really mangled on the way out (C- section) and his hand was completely black for the first couple days.

We didn't get to hold Finn until the second day, which was sooner than they thought even. It was heaven, and he is such a sweet calm baby.

Last night was also a great Nicu night. We were able to hold Tuck for the first time and he seemed to really like it. I also got to feed Finn his 2 mil's from a bottle (think 2 drops) and while he took it, just to suck that little bit of milk and swallow completely wiped him out. They are so fragile, but so so sweet.

Holla!

2011-05-06T12:42:00.002-04:00

Cute little Tate has been "featured" (I know, she's cooler than either one of us) on one of my favorite kids blogs, The Children's Corner. For what you ask? Oh, just her super cool 4 year old style. Which if you know her well, you know is all her. See it all here.

Some Darn Good Advice

2011-05-03T23:35:00.000-04:00

One of my favorite bloggers, Bridget, from Tales of Me and the Husband, posted some tips for visiting a new mother on new-to-me blog Lady Lee. I think they're spot on. Fine with me, call me a little high maintenance. But, when it comes to those first few weeks I figure I'm entitled to calling the shots around here. While it is necessary to visit with the outside world to keep your sanity when you first arrive home, and not to mention everyone wants to see that brand new baby yawn, I also think there is nothing more exhausting than having guests over constantly (and I'd like to have some advance notice to cover up those lovely large milk producing girls)! Are any of my friends/neighbors going to want to come by now?

With so many of my friends having babies right now, it's a good reminder for me too. Practice what you preach, right?

Do you agree... what do you think is too much? What would you add?

Celebrating the Twins!

2011-05-02T02:21:00.001-04:00

This weekend was fun! My in laws threw a fabulous shower to celebrate the twins soon arrival, and it was really nice to finally celebrate instead of just prepare.

In true Pat Horsley fashion, the shower was absolutely amazing and I felt so spoiled.

The real stars of the party were these cuties. The twins will be so lucky to have two cousins so close in age. Wells, above, is my sister in law Maddie's and below is Graham, who is my sister in law Eve's.

Tate asked me if our twins will be as cute as them? I'm not sure they could be.

I can't thank my dear friends and family enough for all their love, help and support since we've been home. It's such a nice feeling.

It was so fun to see and celebrate with everyone! (many of whom aren't pictured)

Especially thank you to my sweet and thoughtful in laws who all worked hard to make this a special day.

I had a blast!

Like Christmas Morning

2011-04-25T03:12:00.000-04:00

We are officially moved in to our new-old house, lovingly referred to as "the gold house". As if we have a purple house, a blue house, and an orange house.

Officially means we are sleeping here, it does not by any standard mean I know where anything is, or have things in their place. Still working on that.

BUT... last week I got to unpack those boxes of home decor + everything else we own that didn't make the trip down to the Caribbean with us (which means everything) and it was Christmas morning all over again! I know it's silly, and it's just "stuff", but my-oh-my I love my stuff.

Stacks of dishes have never made me happier! It's nice to have more than four plates again.

Artwork, although not yet hung, seems so fancy to me now after having posters and pictures taped to our walls in Dominica. We are actually, kinda-sorta, living like grown ups again.

And I can finally start using furniture that I picked out and not just what the landlord had on hand. Imagine that.

Most excited about this pink velvet chair in Tate's room (my favorite ksl score to date). Also I feel I must mention, it's since been cleaned and looks like new again (if anyone needs an upholstery cleaning recommendation I have a great one). Okay, getting off topic now...

I'm telling you, if you're itching to re-do your house, just put everything in storage for a year (or in my case two) and all of the sudden it's new & exciting again. Works like a charm.

To my Tate

2011-04-22T04:18:00.001-04:00

Dear Tate,

I'm sorry I've been such a lame mom lately. I'm so sorry that I can't be the one to take you around town to see all that you've missed about Salt Lake. Go on lunch dates, ride bikes, visit the park, the zoo, the bounce house, the museum.... like we talked about, and like we used to. I'm sorry that each day you spend half, and sometimes more, of the day with someone other than me, because of my bed rest. I absolutely hate it. I'm so so sorry that my doctor told me I can't hold you anymore. I'm sorry I'm not the one making you lunch and dinner. I'm sorry you've had to sleep in 6 different bedrooms in your short life already, and ride on 33 (well now, 35) airplanes. I'm so sorry we just moved back to Salt Lake and will have to leave again just as you're getting used to it, again. I'm sorry that our chaotic life has made you feel confused recently, and every time me or daddy leaves you ask if we'll be coming back, and tell us repeatedly how much you'll miss us. I try to tell you all the time we would never ever leave you, but something is still making you doubt that. I so sorry about that.

I'm sorry I missed your tee-ball game tonight. I was just too tired, and had been on my feet all day trying to get the house ready. I'm so sorry. I will try so hard to never miss another one.

I hope when you're twenty you have great memories of these years, and don't remember this crazy phase. I never intended it to be this way, the bed rest that is, and hope you will always feel how much I love spending my day with you, because just telling you isn't enough. I hope you know I miss you the whole time you're gone. I, unfortunately, now know how overrated having a babysitter every day is. I'm so lucky that I get to stay home with you. I don't know how I managed to get such a loving, helpful, understanding, forgiving, and sweet daughter.

I love you. Sorry again.

Love, mama

Miss Tate grows up

2011-04-21T00:40:00.001-04:00

She is four now. A great excuse, along with the babies coming of course, for me to re-do her room and make it a bit more "big girl". It's really hard, I've decided to do kids rooms. I know I won't have the chance to re-do it every couple years as her style changes, so I've tried my best to keep it young-ish, but something she'd still like when she's 10. I hope I done good.

A few of you have asked where to make a moodboard. I just searched online and found I liked OlioBoard, and also My Deco. It's nice to be able to put all your ideas in one spot to see if they actually do work together, before buying them.

Sources:

Twin Bed- Land of Nod

Mushroom wall decals- lovemaestore, here

Glass lamp- Ikea

Penguin Classic Books- here

Rast Ikea Nightstand- (painted by my sweet parents)

Pink Chair- I couldn't find a picture of mine, but it's the same color as this one. Mine is a pink, velvet tufted arm chair scored off ksl last year.

Knit Pillow- blabla

Armoire- already had from her nursery

You make me happy print- here

Euro Pillow- Anthropologie

Bedding- West Elm

Mushroom sheets- Garnet Hill

Rug- Rugs Usa

Boys

2011-04-19T16:17:00.001-04:00

My thoughts have been on the boys lately. Naturally. It's getting close now. I'm 30 weeks, and feeling a bit more ready. I keep wondering when they'll come- it could be this week, and it could be in six- neither would surprise me. I wonder how big they'll be- supposedly, they're each already the size Tate was when she was born. I wonder if they'll make it out scot-free and not have to spend time in the nicu. And like every pregnant woman, I wonder what they'll look like.

This week as I was unpacking boxes I ran across these photos, and thought

"what a freaking stud!"

I'm totally okay, actually praying & hoping, that both boys look like Wyatt. How luscious is that face?!

Oh please please, let them look like Wyatt.

Released from the prison

2011-04-13T02:12:00.000-04:00

I have no pictures to prove it, but I've been sent home!

The babies seem to be doing fine staying put in there a bit longer, and I've just got to make sure to take it easy and stay on "modified bed rest" per doctors orders. Such better news than I had anticipated! I especially just wanted to say thank you so so much for everyone's concern and love. I know I probably didn't return your call, text, or email while in the hospital, but please know how much they all meant to me. It was so nice to get a sweet message or call from friends, neighbors, and family, and the generosity didn't go unnoticed. Thank you all for offering your help with Tate too... now that I probably will call you back about:)

This week we're working on getting settled into our house (well everyone except me is working on it), and it's time for us to sell some things again.

In a couple days I'll be posting several nursery/home decor items for sale here first, before I list them on Craigslist. Off the top of my head I know there will be Tate's crib, upholstered rocker, Dash & Albert rug, two strollers, an infant car seat, Belle Notte crib bumper, and PB kids book rack + matching shelf. Tate's getting a big girls room, so most her nursery stuff is going (which is killing me!)

The Irony

2011-04-10T22:16:00.001-04:00

The irony of my "it couldn't get any worse post"- read previous post if you're lost, is that it kind of did. I totally jinxed myself. Saturday afternoon I was admitted to labor and delivery from signs of pre-term labor. Contractions, some spotting, and unbeknownst to me, I was/am almost completely effaced and dialated to a one. I'm 29 weeks.

The babies have gotten steroid shots, in case they decide to make an early early arrival, but we're all hoping they'll stay put. A couple weeks would be great. They seem to be doing fine in there, and although they haven't been able to stop the contractions completely like they'd hoped, it's not really progressing either. Each week now will be a blessing to have them inside. I'm SO glad that they didn't decide to come yesterday, with Wyatt driving cross country moving our stuff home. He got in around 6pm tonight, poor guy hardly stopped driving, but I'm so so grateful that I don't have to be here alone anymore.

They don't know yet whether or not I'll be sent home on bed rest, or "living" here at the hospital on bed rest... but either way, it's gotten serious, and I'm completely out of commission. Technically bed rest with bathroom privileges is what I've been ordered. I get to go pee by myself, you mean?! yes. I figured it would happen at some point. Usually does with twins, I guess I was just hoping we'd at least be moved in first. I do have to say we have rockstar families that got all our boxes moved for us Saturday morning. I feel lucky that I can call for help, and have loads of family show up- even though neither me or Wyatt were able to help. Thanks for all your calls, emails and messages. You have no idea how much they help!

I'll keep posting when I can, and with all the free time I have to sit on my arse here, you may be hearing from me more than you'd like.

xoxo

Kaput

2011-04-09T02:45:00.002-04:00

This week I:

-moved back to utah for the summer. third move in 6 months, and i'll have another one in 4 months again.

-temporarily moved into my parents until wyatt gets here on monday and we can move back into this house once again.

-spent 5+ hours scouring that glorious, but exhausting ikea to buy:

2 gulliver cribs

one leka baby gym

2 kompisar bumpers (which mom declared as "institutional looking" and insist i keep looking)

one twin mattress for tate

one twin down comforter for tate + pillow

one nightstand for tate

one sideboard table

one dining room table

4 dining room table chairs

one lamp for tate

one lamp for twins

one rug

whew!!!

-spent the next day stocking up on all those baby essentials x2 for the boys. 14 bottles a day is what i estimated for. 2 new infant car seats. 2 new vibrating seats. a pile of binky's, and about a million burp rags.

-never thought i'd be 30 weeks and just getting the chance to prepare for two new babies

wyatt gets in on monday with our car full of what we took to michigan, and having just a little over a month to study for the biggest test he'll take in med school. good timing on our part, right?:) this weekend i have planned to (hire buff dad's and brothers in law) to move all our furniture + boxes that have been in storage for the past two years... back into our house.... just for the summer (until we'll get to do it all over again in august, across country:) anyone want to take bets on whether or not we'll even get unpacked by the time we have to pack up again? it's comical, really.

my back aches

my legs ache

my head aches

i'm waddling

and completely overwhelmed by all that still needs to happen in order to feel "prepared" and somewhat calm about their arrival. basically i'm freaking out. and please don't tell me when they come that's all that will matter and everything else will just fall into place, because i'll just call your bluff. i'd like to at least have unpacked my pots + pans before i'm having to sterilize those 14 bottles. and heaven forbid i have something cute hung up in their room to make it feel somewhat cozy. why do we have to move across the country TWICE, have twins, sell our house (oh, I didn't mention that?), and have wyatt's most important medical test all in the same summer?

(wow, i'm really holding nothing back this post, am i?)

just to reassure you i'm actually not suicidal like i might sound, this cooky kid is keeping me smiling and laughing still.

and if you wanted to bring me a box of girl scout cookies that would also keep me smiling.

I'm talking Food

2011-03-29T00:41:00.003-04:00

I am no expert, and certainly cannot claim to be a whiz in the kitchen (I recently asked my mother in law how to make whipping cream- I had no idea it was as simple as just whipping some cream). I do, however, love and very much appreciate good food. One thing has been holding me back though.

I don't like to cook. Or... so I thought. You see, when I first got married I was intimidated by my role as "cook", so I skimped, making the easiest casserole's, instant rice mixes, and baked chicken dishes I could find. You know, the ones that call for too much sour cream and some kind of cream of anything soup? I was never satisfied when we would sit down to eat, and always thought I just don't like cooking.

Then we moved to Dominica. Oh boy, then I really didn't like cooking. Not only was it endless casseroles, and easy chicken dishes, but half the time half the ingredients were forgone because they simply "ran out" at the store. A recipe that normally took me 30 minutes to make, took me double or triple the time. Cooking was by far the biggest chore over there for me. We ate waaaay more thawed ground beef, frozen chicken, and soup by the mix than any human should ever consume. I vowed to Wyatt that once we were back in the US I was going to step up my game, in a major way. I was dying for a good quality meal made from fresh ingredients. I could feel our bodies needing it. I think he doubted me a bit. No blame. I was, up until that point, a self proclaimed "non cook, cook".

I think I've finally proved him wrong... and myself too. I am loving cooking. I know the secret now. It's making really good food for your family that makes cooking fun. No wonder I didn't like it before. I wasn't trying, and I wasn't making good food. It's all worth it now, and I'm really enjoying myself because I know when it's time to sit down to eat the food will reward me for my efforts.

That was a really long way of saying: I actually really like to cook now, and here are some of our favorites that I've made recently.

And for the record, these weren't all in the same week. I only cook Sunday- Thursday, and loosely follow this guideline each week: One or two pasta's (that is our favorite), one or two meals with no meat, one Italian, one French, and one either Mexican or Chinese. Sunday night is nicer, Monday night is easy because Tate has late soccer, Tuesday & Thursday I try something new (most often from Ina Garten because she seems to nail mine and wyatt's taste buds on the head every time), and Wednesday is a go-to old favorite. It has seemed to be a good manageable balance.

1. Hazelnut Crusted Salmon: found via Stephmodo. I substituted Pecans for the Hazelnuts because hazelnuts were out of season and it was delicious. Served with Ina's roasted potatoes, or a lemon Arugula salad- yum!

Ina's Panko Crusted Salmon. Another new favorite, and very easy.

2. Sausage, Chard, and Lemon Lasagna: found here. Such different flavors for a lasagna, and we all loved it.

3. Rigatoni with Sausage, Tomatoes + Basil: my now go-to pasta. Wyatt loves it, I love, Tate loves it, and it's super simple. Proof that it's all in using good ingredients. (don't skimp on the fresh basil, it's the best part!) Also penne would work too. I use that instead of Rigatoni because Wyatt prefers it.

4. French Tuna Melt: found here, and yes that is a mound of Gruyere on top. How could it not be good? My mouth is watering just thinking of this amazing sandwich. Please try this!

And so I'm hooked. So much more fun to be in the kitchen when you love what you're making.

ps- Tate eats and has loved each of these too. Proof that kids do like more than mac-n-cheese:)

"My Boobies Runned out of Power"

2011-03-28T11:48:00.000-04:00

That is the hysterical, and best description Tate could give me about how tired she was after her soccer game this weekend. Her boobies had runned out of power, she said. I understood. She ran hard, and fought the whole time to keep the ball (a little competitive she is) for the entire 30 minutes. She scored 2 goals.

So when she came off the court, hands cupped over those little boobies (probably feeling her lungs expanding rapidly and thinking the feeling was coming from her chest), she was sure it was her boobies. All out of power.

She's on the Hurricane's. The mean green soccer team, and she loves it.

ps- I need a better camera that can capture these action shots, don't I?

Boy these are cute

2011-03-25T00:50:00.001-04:00

I'll be frank. Shopping for baby girls is really fun. Shopping for baby boys is, fun.

The FUN part of it started out a little slow for me, as I was completely clueless where to look, or what my "boy style" even was. Thanks to some lengthy, and much appreciated emails from friends with serious style I think it's finally coming together, and this recent etsy purchase has just about put me over the moon with excitement. Almost as much as those little bubbles for baby girls do. Almost.

Three immaculately hand embroidered onesies. One elephant with bird friend, one tree, and one plump hippo, on the softest organic cotton you've ever felt... for a really cool price too. I love these, and the shop owner Jodi could not have been sweeter, making it my favorite purchase for the babes thus far.

I know, I know. I'm dramatic. But these kinds of things excite me.

Also reneging my "boys clothes are totally lame" thoughts are these two.

Zig Zag romper, here. (found via, Elizabeth)

Sailboat onesie, here.

I should have known Boden would pull through, as they always do.

Isn't this blanket so fun?

Any favorite baby etsy shops, or boy brands I probably don't know about... do tell!

Captured: Drawing in her drawers

2011-03-23T13:25:00.000-04:00

Tate drawing "big heads" in her bikini the other day.

She's into drawing lately, especially portraits of people. With each new one she adds more detail. It started out simple- just eyes, nose and mouth. Now she's getting creative and some people wear hats, have either spikey or curly hair. The best yet... severe wrinkles around the mouth, (I'm hitting myself for not taking a picture of that one!).

This is a portrait of me and Wyatt. He drew his own for her, and she drew me.

Let me explain, starting at the top of that cute dancing hotdog:

My eyes and nose at the very top. That's my open mouth in the center, and my ears are the circles off the side of my body. My arms stick out just below my mouth, and the two lower circles side by side just below my mouth are the twin boys in my belly. What looks like it could be something very mysterious in between my legs is just my belly button. Phew! No worries, she's not that good yet. Then my stick legs shoot out the bottom. The floating circle above my ear on the left is a pinecone.. falling on me.

I can't bring myself to let her erase it. It's too funny.

She's also made several portraits of what she thinks the twins are going to look like.

These two are her favorites, because they have spikey hair, and are wearing top hats. No, those aren't rainbows over their heads. Those are the top hats.

If you ask really nice, maybe she'll draw a portrait of you? It'll be like Christmas morning seeing what details she chooses to include. And by the way, I'll make sure she leaves out any severe mouth wrinkles. Not that you'd have any.

Making me happy: Red

2011-03-22T00:45:00.000-04:00

I loved seeing "Red Rocks!" on the j.crew homepage this week. Red just happens to be my favorite color. Although, if you peeked into my closet (or my home) you'd never guess. Maybe that's why I was so pumped to see these modern red pieces popping up on the j.crew site. Red has been missing for a while in fashion, don't you think? I mean, it's a classic of course. It's always had it's place- a red lip, a red evening gown. But, for everyday wear it's been hard to find I think. I know I can find something neutral, pastel, or nautical when I walk into j.crew, but red... I can't remember the last time.

It's about time. I'm kicking off more red in my wardrobe with that fab linen skirt.

A look in the rear view

2011-03-21T00:04:00.000-04:00

I stumbled on this picture of Tate this weekend, and had a moment. A long period actually where I felt sad, really sad, as I reflected on this perfect moment of time. I remember it so well. My favorite stage of her. She had just turned two and we had not yet started our crazy adventure of moving to another country... and back. More importantly, she was little. Up until very recently I have not been sad to see her reach a milestone, learn something new, or explore her independence. It was all very exciting and I encouraged it proudly. But now I am sad. I look at these pictures, and while it all seems like yesterday, she is a completely different kid. Not a baby anymore, by any means. She is a little girl. She doesn't need to sit on the counter to help me bake anymore- she can reach on a small stool. Her chubby cheeks, and dimples on her knuckles are gone. She dresses herself, and no longer needs to drink from a sippy.

And not that four hasn't brought a whole new slew of adorable things for her. She is still just as sweet, if not more. I am sad because I don't know that I'll get another one. A girl that is. For the record, I'm thrilled to be having twin boys. But, just like I never thought I'd have twins, I also never thought I'd only have one girl. We plan on three kids, and will get them quickly in just two pregnancies.

I wish I'd known that she would most likely be my only girl, and somehow figured out a way to slow down time. It's not that I have regrets, I'm confident that I soaked all of her up, as much as I could have. I'm good at that. I just wish time would stop now.

I'm not at all ready to say goodbye to my baby girl.

Because I can't...

2011-03-17T22:01:00.002-04:00

I'm having boys, you know.

Someone please snatch up these absolutely adorable vintage moccasins from Little Dipper.

Twenty Six Weeks

2011-03-16T22:04:00.003-04:00

Adios feet.

You are quickly disappearing out of sight.

Stats:

26 weeks and feeling okay. I feel more sore and further along than I did with Tate at this point. I'm hoping it's due to the fact that there's two in there, and not that my body is getting ready to deliver.

3pm is usually when I give up walking and start waddling with hands on my back hips, hair goes up in a pony, stretchy pants come on, and I pop two tylenol.

By 5pm I'm ready to call it quits for the day.

No real cravings.

Lots and lots of anxiety and worry about how I'm actually going to make it work when they come. Wyatt has told me I have to limit my "stressed out sighs" to a maximum of 5 per day. He also says I should stop believing that every person I have contact with is on a personal mission to ruin my life.

Still seeing two doctors every two weeks.

Babies are measuring right on track, about 1 pound 10 ounces each. (yay!)

Movements from the babes are happening throughout the entire day, but between 10-12pm they begin their dance party, and from the outside my belly looks like it's popping it's own bag of Redenbacher's.

Contractions are happening several times each day, but no more than four an hour, which I've been told is okay. I've also been told to take it really easy. No working (what is that?), lifting Tate, vacuuming, or hauling laundry. This is where I would normally say "sorry Wy", but he's already been doing the vacuuming and laundry for the past month because he's just a gem like that.

Had a slight scare last week when the doc told me my cervix was already thinning. But after a double and triple check she reassured me it was still okay. I go for a follow up this Friday, let's pray that cervix of mine has stayed put.

For twins, at 28 weeks there is a 90% chance of survival and little complications of both babies. 34 weeks is the real target though. Twins who make it that far, almost always do perfectly fine.

Still no baby names picked out. Tate has come up with some good ones though...

Hog and Hoggin.

Maddie, and sweet friends- you can stop lying to me about not showing. I'm large and in charge now.

Bookmark: Outstanding in the Field

2011-03-15T11:39:00.000-04:00

Mark your calendars (and start saving now) for Outstanding in the Field. It's on my life list of things I have to experience before I die. I first heard about it last year, and I've been subscribing to their email updates so I would always be in the know of where they were headed next. Essentially, it's a gourmet traveling food bus.

The list is out people, and March 20th is the date tickets go on sale. This summer, you're lucky if you live in Utah because they'll be coming to Eden on Sunday July 17th. Read about the cool farm location, and the chef (from local favorite Pago) here. Tickets are pricey, to say the least, but if you're a foodie and can appreciate the awesomeness of it all, I think it would be worth it.

If you don't live in Utah, no worries. They travel all summer long and here's a list of where else they'll be stopping + serving.

Can you imagine how neat it would be to have a sunset dinner in the summer, prepared by a gourmet chef, eating all locally grown food, in one of these beautiful settings? I know. I love it too that you're eating with a bunch of strangers... at first.

Has anyone ever done this?

I hear they sell out very fast, so remember March 20th is the day to be online.

Celebrating in Ann Arbor + giveaway

2011-03-14T10:37:00.002-04:00

Saturday was a wonderful day! Our dear friends Liz and Ben invited us down to their neck of the woods, Ann Arbor, to sight see and celebrate Ben's upcoming birthday. Last year we celebrated his birthday eating Chinese at Tulips on a Caribbean island. Chinese food, at a place called Tulips, on a Caribbean island? Random, I know. This year though, wasn't. It was a blast, as we started the day off right with a delicious lunch at Zola's in the heart of Ann Arbor.

Liz grew up near Ann Arbor and knew it like the back of her hand. Let me tell you, that town has charm. So many wonderful little places to eat, shop, peruse.

Hollanders was heaven. Imagine every kind and color and style of wrapping paper, letterpress card, stationary set all in one store. I started having contractions in here I was so giddy. Pretty stores are just so good.

Also sending me into pre labor was Elephant Ears, one of the neatest baby stores I've ever seen. There are a lot of cool products that have come out since I had Tate (I feel out of the loop already!)

Tate is all about having a twin stroller now. Of course.

A large chocolate cake and apple tart was shared for Bens birthday, and was the perfect pick me up after a long day on our feet. You'd think of day of walking around, eating and shopping would be miserable for Tate. Nope. She kept asking to go walking around the city more! It doesn't hurt that she absolutely adores both Liz & Ben and I think really misses them.

To end the day, Liz took us on a driving tour of the amazing U of M campus. It was unbelievable and I can't believe the building's these kids get to live in. The one above is just one of the beautiful student dorm buildings. I pretty much felt like I was driving through Hogwarts.

Can you see where we are in this one? My mom and dad will know right away. YES! There is a Five Guys on campus and when we drove by it I about pooped my pants with excitement. I have been craving a good burger + fries since we've been here.

Liz and Ben will be confused about this because when we left them, we were on our way home. Then we had to stop at Wendy's so that I could pee (for the 50th time), and while in there we decided we better not leave Ann Arbor without having ourselves a burger from Five Guys.

So we headed back down to campus and indulged!

It was such a wonderful weekend. Since Wyatt's been in medical school, we rarely get to spend this much time together. I forget sometimes, how much fun we all have together.

Thanks again Liz and Ben!!

* Also, don't miss out on visiting Bridget's blog (one of my faves, and if you're not reading it you're missing out) for a great tatertot giveaway- open through Thursday!

A cinderella story: about shoes

2011-03-11T13:22:00.001-04:00

From drab to fab
Old Navy Hack
Crewcuts knockoff
What ever you'd like to call it... I am blogging my own DIY.
Now, let me preface this by stating, I'm not always the biggest fan of DIY projects. I think there is a place for them, and I also think it's gone way overboard. I generally prefer to just support the artist/store/creator (and am also super lazy) and just buy it.

But these. Well, I couldn't afford them, and I reeeeaallly wanted them (that's not an uncommon thing for me seeing as how Wyatt and I are both blissfully unemployed). The reason these are different, and the reason for my sudden motivation to take matters into my own hands is simple. It was simple.

An $8 pair of Old Navy flats. 1.5 yards of grosgrain ribbon. Hot glue gun. 30 minutes.

the inspiration: $55 crewcuts grosgrain flat

My $9.50 version

Way cuter than the plain navy flats before ribbon + Tate thinks I'm super awesome because I put stripes on her shoes + Wyatt loves me for saving him $50.

I don't have step by step pictures of the "process" because, well... I'm just not that organized, and because the process was really only two steps. Measure and cut ribbon to fit, hot glue onto shoes. Done.

While I'm on this J.Crew/ Old Navy comparison raid.... here are some other look-a-likes that might save you a penny.

Top shoes: Bensimon tennis shoe from J.Crew (kids)

Bottom shoes: Old Navy (adults)

My little sis has the fancy metallic Sperry's on the left (and I think she'd appreciate me mentioning she had them before J.crew decided to carry them). I've always loved them + couldn't afford them.

I snatched up this look-a-like from Old Navy last week and am thoroughly pleased with how they look.

(Old Navy also has some cute boat shoes for kids)

Am I an official blogger now that I've posted about my own DIY?

Three is better than one

2011-03-08T11:43:00.000-04:00

Just as I was thinking about maybe cutting my hair, I came across this, via Cup of Jo.
Tried it this weekend for Tate's first soccer game (GO Hurricane's!) and date night, and don't ever want to take it out.

ps- did you catch the Bachelor? Whew.... that was intense.